God's Grace

i was wondering....haiz...i've always been thinking about my spiritual state dat i'm in rite now...
where is my 1st love? y my heart has grown cold? bcos of the things of the world or issues pertaining to life which have taken up in the my heart dat God has nowhere 2 be found in my heart anymore...i was careless dat i'm distracted & allow these things 2 enter into...

how am i returning back 2 God again? i confess all my sins weakness & acknowledge Him in my life once again...where is my faith after all dat i'm required 2 do?

was surprised 2 receive a letter from Tan tock Seng...
asking me to go for check-up cos they were notified dat the previous sch i was working with
had a child who was diagnosed with Tuberculosis (TB) ...
i had little knowledge of wad tis disease is all about but watch in TV drama serial dat pple will cough badly sometimes cough up blood...

so far i feel quite okay, dun think need 2 go 4 tis check-up...
cos noeing God will protect His pple by His grace & mercy...
i pray dat tis child will be healed by the power of God...

awaiting for the power of God to heal

I had a condition since my days in secondary school which not many pple noe, not even my gd friend (since sec. sch we knew each other until now) which is tension at my shoulders and neck...probably i think too much or cause by stress & anxiety but i realli wonder when will i receive my healing, whenever i read the bible of stories on mircales & healings or even testimony of others, when will it be my turn 4 the power of healing to enter into my life? get discourage at times bcos nothing had happened everytime we asked or being prayed by others, sometimes i realli wonder am i goin thru tis like Job in the bible or God is trying 2 work out something in me which is the fruit of patience & humility...i need 2 hear from Him again but it seems like i can't hear nor sense anything frm heaven...God is delaying the answers of my prayers? i juz need 2 b patient & continuing 2 ask in faith like a child...